The biggest problem with your children reading your blog posts is that you may not want to be a blatant about this or that. Or you are afraid you may offend them, which of course neither i no you would want to do so. I have spent the last 28 years looking after and teaching my children to survive in a world that isn’t always fair. Then at the very moment i was going to finally have some time, space and money for myself disaster struck and then as i struggled to come to terms with the bad stuff i then became a grandmother.
Now don’t get me wrong. I love my children and my granddaughter’s very much, but a mummy (grandma) without a life of their own, no matter how limited, is no mummy at all. I have decided that children are like water, they get everywhere and i know there are those who will be reading this and saying ‘i should be grateful for what i have’ and i am, honestly i am.
At the moment i have my daughter Emily and my granddaughter living with me and what a blessing they have been. Emily has cleared out more stuff for charity in the last month than i would have been able to do and who can help but smile when 8 month old Amelia waves her hand at you and smiles from ear to ear every morning. I would love to sell the house or maybe even walk away from it, it’s in need of a lot of repair mostly cosmetic, but doing that now would make my children homeless. Looking for a home for two, as Emily would need to, is not that easy, especially when funds are limited.
My daughter’s mutter about me not eating. I say ‘soup’ they say that’s not enough. So i end up eating more than i want.
My daughter’s mutter about me sleeping a lot. I don’t sleep lots every day just some days, but it used to be every day
My daughter’s mutter i shouldn’t stay in all the time. But i am trying to turn my bedroom into a sacred space, complete and mandala and read more,
My daughter’s eat meat, i say i don’t like it, my stomach doesn’t like it and it doesn’t taste good.
My dearest daughter’s i need all of you, but can you please stop fussing.
I have threatened to eat only junior baby food (and coco pops) and stay in bed all the time be grateful that at least i am not doing either of those things – just yet!