We are so busy, busy, busy! Life is so busy, busy, busy! The fact that i am not at work any more doesn’t seem to make any difference, i always seem to have to something to do or somewhere to go. I continue to struggle both physically and mentally with my inability to carry out even the simplest of tasks – some days.
I seem to find myself in a vortex of space with the world rushing and crashing around me and i am trying my best to catch up and keep up. There are times when i nearly do so, but then something happens i have to let go, which causes me to spin on the spot and crash to the floor, where i can often stay for several days. Now do not think for one moment that i literally mean the floor, i do not, it’s hard to explain. I can no longer stride along at any speed and often find those around me rushing here and there, busy, busy, busy!
Last Thursday evening has i returned to my front door after coming from my daughter’s where i had been looking after my granddaughter, Amelia, i paused on the doorstep as i fumbled with my door key. As i looked up, there to my left just above the houses was the moon, it’s full face showing. For a few moments i stopped, i paused and the world paused too.
After all the storms that have lashed Britain over the last couple of weeks to see a clear sky was rather amazing. As i live not far from the city centre to see the moon and the stars so bright i could almost reach out and touch them was a perfect picture of hope. It was as if it was saying, ‘it’s alright to go slow, it’s alright to stop once in a while.