I guess what i want to say is that no one no matter how much they love you will put you first, you really have to put yourself first. Now i am not saying that you should be mean and unkind to others, but when life throws things at you, which it is often does if you do not deal with them first before you reach out to others they will come back to get you in the end.
I have been meditating every night and some mornings since the first of the year. It was the only new year’s resolution that i made. I wanted to see what it would do for me, but to do that i had to put myself first – at least in that instance. I have found that by meditating every night i am beginning to know myself, not just as a physical being but also as a spiritual being too, which is something i have known for many years but have taking this knowledge for granted. About a month ago, although i have never ever put any goals or time on what i wanted to achieve through meditation, other than creating a quiet time, but a month ago i began seeing colours in my mind during meditation. I was unsure as to what they meant.
Now Buddhists would have you believe that these colours mean nothing and you should ignore them. However i began to research colours and meditation and i came up with Chakra healing. After an online mini quiz and some in-depth reading i came to realise that many if not all of my chakras were closed – basically my spirit had closed them to protect itself. But recently i have begun focusing on a certain chakra, that of the foot, to create a grounding for what will come next. My meditation as also become deeper and more meaningful, it is no longer a must do, but something i want to do.
Firstly we need to realise that if our bodies are in pain then it is telling us something important, but if we do not take the time to listen to it then we may never know what it is saying and therefore we will more than likely continue in the same vein as we are in, that of pain and fatigue. Now i am not saying that medication does not have a place it does, but to become completely dependant on it just shuts the body down and leaves the spirit cowering. Neither am i saying that i no longer have any pain or fatigue that is not so either, it is something i am working on day by day and you can too, but first you need to stop and listen and wait for i know the answer will come in time no matter what the question.
Is this profound enough? I don’t know!