Yesterday was definitely 1-0 to Fibromyalgia or maybe it was the chronic fatigue, but it was almost impossible for me to get out of bed and do much of anything. For the ‘normal’ person a little catch up sleep is usually all that is needed, but not so with me. I slept on and off during the day and still slept all night and today i am still not up to my usual self.
My dreams, nightmares and night terrors, which have been quiet for a few months have suddenly reappeared over the last week and are waking me up several times a night, which is not good for anything! The rest of the time, when i finally get to sleep around 2 or 3am my mind is in constant conversation with itself.
And then there are the unhelpful people who advise me to take some exercise! Take some exercise my left foot! First i have to be able to get out of bed long enough to pick up some clothes and then i have to get dressed and the thought of doing so is beyond me, much less the physical action. People who do not live with this hell, just do not understand. When i am stating that i am having cereal for my tea, it is not because i have no other food, neither is it because i cannot be bothered to cook for one person, it is because it is physically impossible for me to do anything else and starvation is not something i had in mind!
I know it is all part of the syndrome, but i really wish it would give me a break!
I had to sweep the kitchen floor this morning as it was beyond leaving, but although i now have a pile, I am unable to bend down and scoop the pile up and put it in the bin. Am I lazy? Am i having you on, so you will feel sorry for me? No, I am simply telling you how it is.
And I have itchy skin, everywhere and if i scratch it, then it burns, so what is that about? Nope not changed anything! Moan over – for today, at least!!