I am reading a book called ‘Simple Tuesday: Small Moment Living In Fast Moving World ‘ by Emily Freeman. After Part 1 she leaves us with a few questions for us to ponder and answer if we feel so inclined, but I was stopped by the first question, which was –
- What kinds of things, people or circumstances have made you feel small?
And my first reaction was to say oit loud to the space around me – EVERYTHING!
Yes, everything makes me feel small. Everything makes me feel tiny like a mustard seed or even a grain of sand or even invisible.
I presented my husband with small beautiful children and all he did was belittle me and made me feel small enough to vanish altogether.
When I was at school the teachers would give me the new children too hang around with, but it wasn’t long before they made me feel small too and again I vanished.
I once had a job, which was hard work, but I enjoyed it, but then I got sick, then disabled and then small, very small, until again I vanished.
Yes, I have friend, but far to often it feels like I am the last person they want to spend their time with. My disability makes everything difficult, I know, but I should be made to feel so small.
Yet, God did not make me to feel small, but yet I do! He made me just a little lower than the angels, crowned me with glory and called me daughter.
But, how do I become the daughter he wants me to be when the world makes me feel so small, I vanish?
- Have you ever felt so small that you felt like you were invisible?