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This was written from a prompt – By the Sea…
Cancerian by birth and Cancerian by nature. I am governed by the sea, the tides and the moon. It is by water that I find peace to my soul. But, like a crab, my birth sign, I scuttle sideways at life, trying to avoid anything and everything that appears to be different or indeed dangerous. It is not unheard of truth, that you will often find me hiding under a rock, peering warily out at you, at the world or even at the universe. Wanting you to see me, but anxiously hoping you don’t!
Like a crab, I appear to be hard and tough, but I can assure you it is only my outer shell, my outer self, my need for preservation that you are seeing. For, inside, you see, I am soft and squishy. If you have enough patient to sit by my rock or ever so slowly crawl underneath my rock and sit quietly by my side, you will in time come to realise that I am less hard-shell and more squishy-hearted than you ever imagined. Sit still, be quiet and if you are lucky I will extend my pincer of friendship towards you, and you can bet that when and if I do, I mean ‘friend for life.’ Even if you decide to walk away, I will still be here, sitting patiently, waiting, pincer out stretched in case you decide to come back – Because that it just what I do!
And if you make me cry, it will not be because you have broken through my shell from the outside, but that, I let you inside my shell where the squishy bits are – and you broke my shell from the inside-out. Each broken shell makes me stronger and warier and less trusting. However, do not take my quiet, gentle nature as the nature of a fool, for that right-pincer is sharper than it looks and the next time you amble idly by and do not see me hiding under my rock peering out at the world, beware, for you may lose a toe, or a foot or even a leg!!!
A few days ago, a storm raged all day and most of the night. The rain poured, the wind howled, the thunder crashed and the lightening zig-zagged across the darkened sky. The best place to be was inside.
Yesterday, as I set off from home barely a whisper of a breeze ruffled the leaves across the now dry ground. There was a deep sense of calm. It felt as if nature sighed as it realised that it had survived the storm.
As I walked along, I could help thinking about the times in our lives when the storms pound through our own lives, causing us to run for the safety of home.
As nature, does not know how long the storm would rage, we do not know how the storms will rage through our life and all we can do is hold on. Yet, there always comes a time when the storms abate and we can finally give a sigh of relief as we surround ourselves with calm.
As natures storms come and go, so will our storms come and go. In the middle of the storms we need to remind ourselves that we survived the last one, we will also survive the present one and next one to come, as well.
The after the storm comes the peace and the calm assurance that allows us to sigh and move on. For after the storm, comes a rainbow.
People who do not know me well, find it odd when I say that I am a Christian and I believe in a mindful life and I meditate every day. Even if they do not say anything there is often a quizzical look that passes across their brow, the braver ones, wonder how it all works in one life, but for that is easy. It works like this…
Several years ago, I met a man, who became my friend for part of my life’s journey. As we walked the same path for a while I came to know that he had walked away from his Christian congregation, finding no relief from what was ailing him and his life at the time and he turned to meditation and eventually to Buddhism. I began to feel around the edges of Buddhism and meditation. It changed my life and my thinking, but in the end, it brought me full circle back to Jesus and his teachings and therefore it deepened my understanding of Christianity.
I have found that meditation is a way for me to connect with God, Angels and the Universe aligning my inner Spirit with all that is around me.
I know, understand and accept that we are all connected through energy, that I know as, spirit.
As I have come to understand Jesus’ part in my life, I have come to know him as a man who embodied mindfulness in all that he did in life. We could learn a lot from the kind of man that he was in his daily life. We should stop trying to become Him, but instead, become ‘like him.’
Over the many years I have been a converted Christian, for I believe that many say that they are followers of Christ and yet His teachings have not touched their hearts and changed their very beings. It is only when we ponder or meditate upon His words that they can sink deep within us, bringing about change.
I have learnt from the scriptures that Jesus meditated or pondered as well as prayed and we can do so too. His very presence changed the lives of others and so should our presence change the lives of those who pass.
I do not know who will walk my life path with me or for that matter how long they will do so, but I have come to know that every person I pass, even in the street, on the bus, in the supermarket is part of my journey. Each should be lovingly accepted and then we need to lovingly let them go if they so wish to do so. As Jesus, will force no person to accept him as their Saviour, we should be careful that we are not forcing others to be what we want them to be.
Every day I read the words of God, I meditate and I pray. Every week I study meditation, mindfulness and Jesus, bringing them together within me, to change me, to make me more whole – complete.
“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.” (James 1:17)
And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
Imitator – to have or assume the appearance of or simulate or resemble…
Lupus; rashes, fatigue, joint pain, headaches, swollen glands…but it’s not!
Multiple Sclerosis (MS); fatigue, pain, numbness, tingling, muscles spasms, weakness, bladder problems, bowel problems, depression and anxiety…but its not!
Rheumatoid Arthritis; swollen joints, pain, stiffness…but it’s not!
Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) aka Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS); anything from slight reduction in daily mobility to complete immobility and inability to carry out any daily task no matter how simple…but it’s not that either!
Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS); abdominal pain, cramping, constipation, diarrhoea, incontinence, lethargy, nauseous, vomiting, back pain…but it’s not that either…
…but yet it is all of these things, but none of them depending on what it feels like being, it is indeed the Great Imitator…a chameleon.