After the storm

After the storm

photo credit Nate Fifield

A few days ago, a storm raged all day and most of the night. The rain poured, the wind howled, the thunder crashed and the lightening zig-zagged across the darkened sky. The best place to be was inside.

Yesterday, as I set off from home barely a whisper of a breeze ruffled the leaves across the now dry ground. There was a deep sense of calm. It felt as if nature sighed as it realised that it had survived the storm.

As I walked along, I could help thinking about the times in our lives when the storms pound through our own lives, causing us to run for the safety of home.
As nature, does not know how long the storm would rage, we do not know how the storms will rage through our life and all we can do is hold on. Yet, there always comes a time when the storms abate and we can finally give a sigh of relief as we surround ourselves with calm.

As natures storms come and go, so will our storms come and go. In the middle of the storms we need to remind ourselves that we survived the last one, we will also survive the present one and next one to come, as well.

The after the storm comes the peace and the calm assurance that allows us to sigh and move on. For after the storm, comes a rainbow.

Mindfulness, Meditation & Jesus

Mindfulness, Meditation & Jesus

mormon-prayer6People who do not know me well, find it odd when I say that I am a Christian and I believe in a mindful life and I meditate every day. Even if they do not say anything there is often a quizzical look that passes across their brow, the braver ones, wonder how it all works in one life, but for that is easy. It works like this…

Several years ago, I met a man, who became my friend for part of my life’s journey. As we walked the same path for a while I came to know that he had walked away from his Christian congregation, finding no relief from what was ailing him and his life at the time and he turned to meditation and eventually to Buddhism. I began to feel around the edges of Buddhism and meditation. It changed my life and my thinking, but in the end, it brought me full circle back to Jesus and his teachings and therefore it deepened my understanding of Christianity.

I have found that meditation is a way for me to connect with God, Angels and the Universe aligning my inner Spirit with all that is around me.

I know, understand and accept that we are all connected through energy, that I know as, spirit.

As I have come to understand Jesus’ part in my life, I have come to know him as a man who embodied mindfulness in all that he did in life. We could learn a lot from the kind of man that he was in his daily life. We should stop trying to become Him, but instead, become ‘like him.’

Over the many years I have been a converted Christian, for I believe that many say that they are followers of Christ and yet His teachings have not touched their hearts and changed their very beings. It is only when we ponder or meditate upon His words that they can sink deep within us, bringing about change.

I have learnt from the scriptures that Jesus meditated or pondered as well as prayed and we can do so too. His very presence changed the lives of others and so should our presence change the lives of those who pass.

I do not know who will walk my life path with me or for that matter how long they will do so, but I have come to know that every person I pass, even in the street, on the bus, in the supermarket is part of my journey. Each should be lovingly accepted and then we need to lovingly let them go if they so wish to do so. As Jesus, will force no person to accept him as their Saviour, we should be careful that we are not forcing others to be what we want them to be.

Every day I read the words of God, I meditate and I pray. Every week I study meditation, mindfulness and Jesus, bringing them together within me, to change me, to make me more whole – complete.

“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.” (James 1:17)

Change comes slowly – sometimes!

Change comes slowly – sometimes!

kidsAs I begin to write this it is 9.20pm and i really i should be going to bed, but i felt that i couldn’t or maybe i wouldn’t rest completely without writing, because i am a writer. I am a writer in training and yet i am still a writer and the reason i know i am a writer is that someone, somewhere will read this and nod their head in agreement. For me to be able to continue to write things must change.
I came into the year knowing that it was going to be a year of change, God told me, angels told me and the universe told too and they continue to do so. For the last few months i have felt completely alone, i know i have written about this already and so i will not dwell on it again, but i knew i had to change something. Some of the changes have been really hard and yet i know God has my back.
However, the one thing i have come to realise is that i cannot change my diagnosis or how my chronic conditions affect me from day to day. I also realise that i cannot change other people or make decisions for them, besides i have enough decisions to make of my own. I have also come to realise that I am a child of God, that he has brought me here – to see what i will do and to see what others will do also. For we are not alone even if we live alone. Our energy is forever rippling out into the world and it is up to us to make sure that that energy is full of positivity, which is sometimes hard and at other times is the last thing we want to do or be.
After sitting in my deep, dark hole for several months, bemoaning my lot, I changed one thing and this one thing is making a difference and bringing about other changes too. What is this miracle? It was simply this –  i stopped playing hit and miss with my meditation practice Now, it has become centre stage for me instead of an add-on if i had time. Only 30 days ago i began to get serious about my practice, this was in part to do with a book i was reading ‘The Intuitive Dance’ but in the end the book is just a book and unless i changed, nothing would. Next i took away my crutch ‘guided meditations’ and i sat every day in silence, first for 10-minutes twice a day, i wasn’t very successful, but i persisted. At some point, it became easier, more restful and less forced.
Then i began to add a mantra to my meditation asking for guidance for my life from God, Angels and the Universe because i didn’t know anymore who was out there and therefore who would answer, but i believed someone would. Today i sat with ease for 20 minutes and when the voice from the app came into my mind that it was time to finish, i was sat with so much ease that i did not want to stop. Believe me when i say, that if you do not know who to ask for help, then just ask and i can assure you it will be given you.
Another book came my way, in fact until i had ordered it, it kept coming my way from every web page and site and angle and corner and i am grateful for it’s appearance – did the universe bring it to me, yes, i believe it did. It is called ‘The Universe has your back’ by Gabrielle Bernstein, more about it later.
There is another change coming (or two), but one can’t happen without me making room for it in my life. 1) There is a new blog coming – more about that later, but after writing this blog for about 8-years it is time for change and i think it is a good one. 2) I need to write less on my blog so i can write more on my book or as my clairvoyant friend told me ‘books’ – from what i have read, writing the first one is the hardest.
What is the new blog called? “Letters to my Children” – it will be let loose on the Internet on the 1 December and i will let you know what the URL is when it happens, i think those who follow my blog will automatically receive it in their emails.

Mindfulness and Choice

Mindfulness and Choice

water-rippleFrom the moment our minds wake up in the morning we begin to make choices; what to wear, what to do or what to eat, or who to see or where to go and when. Some of these choices effect us and no one else, but some of them are like throwing a giant stone into the middle of a very still lake – the ripples continue to move outwards far longer than the first splash of the stone hitting the surface of the water. Even our little choice, those little pebbles that are tossed mindlessly into the pool of water and which seem to cause almost no ripples can and do effect others.


Recently a friend made a big choice to leave church, not leave God, but to attend church somewhere. Their leaving for me was a giant stone thrown harshly into the universal pool of spiritual connected. They believed their leaving would solved things for themselves and others, but it has not and will not. Personally i still feel the shuddering impact and i see it and feel it as it vibrates around the church. I am living with the shudders as i am unable to control them or walk away from them.

We need to Accept that we are all universally connected.

That our Choices are now ours alone.

God did not make us to stand alone, he made us to stand together.


My Listology ~ Absoloutely

My Listology ~ Absoloutely




My definition of the word ‘Listology’ ~ a list of related things, gathered under the same heading.

We all like lists? Don’t we? Actually i am really bad at making lists, shopping lists in particular and even if i write a list i end up leaving them at home or losing them. List are not really my thing and so i intend to keep my Listology short.

6 things you should Absolutely do every day.

  1. Meditate
  2. Read
  3. Spend time with God
  4. Walk
  5. Drink water
  6. Eat fruit